Happy 21st Birthday Roy! (:
Don't know if you will see this. But thank you for all you've done in my life. All the countless discipleship, encouragement, motivation you have done for me that really make me grow alot as a person. I will always remember how you teach me how to plan my life, include me in planning youth camp, include me zone marcom etc. You are awesome man! It a privileged to be lead by you when we were in the same cG!

went school today. bad day man.
super irritated by the faci, he love to group all the strong and all the weak together. can't he think for a moment? crap. just told him how i felt how lame he is in the rj, told him i don't care what grade he going to give me. pissed.

after school went to TRCC with caiwei, jenifer, ginny, jynn & suet may. had a interesting talk with them, they were sharing their experiences in relationship. HAHA. esp caiwei and jynn (: jynn bf send us to causeway after that, we all made him paiseh in the car. ha ha ha. trained with jenifer and caiwei, we just coma and slept while caiwei psp-ed.

reach church, hung out awhile then builder service started.
church builder = people who gave their all to build
What Pastor shared was so amazing, so so so impacted.
She mention about how people gave up things just to build the church.

was amazing hearing all the stories esp Elaine's.
during worship, i cried & cried..
thinking the past 4.5years the fair bit i gave up too

the fighting of 1year plus just to come
the many quarrels and unhappiness at first within the family
the times when i would cry in my room just hopping things would turn out fine
how i was scolded in front of the badminton team being the captain yet leaving early
the many rearranging of appts to just come
the stares and finger pointing from many relatives during funeral, when i refuse to hold josstick and kneel down before idols.
the many persecution we got back in northbrooks

nothing comes easy for me, but God is faithful.
there is always a high price to pay whenever you love something, even it cost you everything you just got to give it up

can't wait to share how my mother saw the change and allow me to come
even though i don't have alot of quantity family time, and all the family time i need to plan it according. so much more i treasure family time. whenever i have time i will book my parents to spend time with them.
can't wait to share how God had been faithful to me, during my lowest point in my life
can't wait to share the many miracles i had in my life
can't wait to share how going to RP DBA was a miracle itself.
can't wait to share the many breakthrough i got

Faithfulness
this 1 word makes a world of difference.
so easy to put down everything to walk away, faithfulness holds us.
being faithful to the mundane
being faithful to giving and giving for the rest of your life
being faithful and having gratitude to people who has sown in your life
thats what make a difference between a great and a good person (:

too many emotions now..
as Pastor was praying for me, as i laid there.
God told me so clearly.. believe and dare to dream
everything just fits into the bigger picture.

my future is decided. i don't know how. my creator knows.
i am always brought to the right people at the right time.
i going be so rich in the future, to help people. it is going to happen (:
it is never how you start, it is how you going to end.

speechless.
impacted.
loved.
faithfulness.
amazed.

anyway my family has really turn ard.
so so much closer than last time.
much closer to my brothers.(this is a miracle as we grew up by fighting)
my brother just sang amazing grace. ha ha ha.
PARENTS. yes, they coming church this week most probably.
i believe they know i am serious because this is like 5years already. ha ha ha
maybe somewhere along the line, they know my God is real or becos they see the joy in me even though i am tired or maybe is the peace that i always had.
my dream is coming to past.
God is real today.

Pastors!
They are the most amazing people i have seen.
Without them, i am nothing of what you seen today.
I am not perfect, i had loads of weakness. Eh, i am human (:
The life principles they taught me.
The right convictions in life.
I am so blessed by them.
The many years of concern, love, discipleship, word has change me so much.
How they would always put us first, always making sure we are alright, watching out for us.
Always believing in us even though the world treat us as kids.
These kids today has grown and run one of the biggest youth group.
Amazing.


I'm captivated by Your love in me :D